On March 4th of this year is has been 29 years since I quit smoking.
I smoked for exactly 20 years. I started when I was 15 years old because most of my friends smoked and I wanted to be stupid like them. I pretty much smoked regularly except for the times when I was pregnant. I was able to refrain from smoking for those months but went right back to it right after the baby was born.
The last year or so that I smoked I absolutely hated it, and I also felt really stupid, especially if I was around people who didn't smoke. I smoked a pack a day and was pretty addicted. As soon as my feet hit the ground in the morning there was a cigarette in my mouth!
Plus it kept me thin! If I was hungry or craving something sweet I would have a cup of coffee and a cigarette and the craving would be gone!
But eventually everyone I knew that smoked started quitting one by one. I really wanted to be a non-smoker! The first time I tried I lasted 2 weeks before I caved in to the cravings which were relentless!
The year I turned 35 and realized that I smoked for 20 years I knew it was time to stop smoking once and for all! Lent was coming up so I decided I that would be a good time to try again. I figured that if I couldn't stand it after 40 days I would give myself an out and just start smoking again!
It was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do in my life! At the time I worked in a dental office about 8 miles away from my house. Every morning on my way to work and every evening on my way home I had to talk myself past every store and gas station where I used to stop and buy cigarettes!
I can't recall if I used anything for a crutch like chewing a straw or using nicotine gum. I just quit cold turkey. It was all or nothing for me! One thing I did have was a strong desire to be a non-smoker and worthy of my friends and family that either quit smoking or never smoked at all!
Another thing that helped was using shampoo's and soaps and lotions that smelled good. I was happy to not smell like a cigarette all the time!
My taste buds came back and food started tasting really good, too! Even a hot dog was dangerously delicious! It didn't take long for me to start gaining weight!
When the 40 days was up all I could think was that I never want to have to quit smoking again so I was never going back!
I used to dream that I started smoking again and would be so disgusted with myself! When I woke up I would be confused asking myself, "Did I really start smoking again?" What a relief to realize it was only a dream!
It took a good 6 months before I finally stopped thinking about having a cigarette 24 hours a day! Little by little the cravings went away and after about a year I didn't think much about it at all.
It goes without saying how glad I am now that I stuck with it. In 2008 when it had been 16 years since I quit smoking I was diagnosed with bladder cancer. The urologist asked me several times if I smoked. When I googled smoking and bladder cancer there was a article that said the toxins can stay in your body for up to 16 years after you quit! Luckily we caught the cancer very early and surgery removed it all.
One of my friends that I smoked with as a teenager never quit and she passed away from lung cancer before she was 58 years old.
So now it's been 29 years and I'm still pretty proud of myself and still occasionally kick myself for being so dumb when I was 15 years old!
In other news, look at all the Easter signs they had at the Dollar Tree!
There were so many I had a hard time choosing! I took the pictures to send to Shauna to see what one she wanted too! She wanted one of the ones with the 4 eggs hanging down in the top pictures.
This is the one I bought for myself.
It's got glitter and pretty pastel colors! So pretty and only $1! I love it!Until the next time stay safe and well my friends!